At 36 weeks my doctor finally took me off bed rest. I no longer had to take Procardia, which I think caused a lot of my swelling, or lay around as much. Being on bed rest for over 5 weeks definitely took a toll on my body though. I would still swell if I stood too long and I got tired just walking up the stairs. Dr. Turner checked my cervix on May 29th and I was 3cm dilated. That was exciting news and I hoped that meant I would go into labor quickly after my appointment. As much as I wanted to go into labor, though, I also knew our little boy needed to stay in a little longer. The weekend came and went and I started to second guess every contraction or decreased movement from the baby.
At my 37 week appointment, Dr. Pack said I was 5cm dilated, almost fully effaced and my sac was bulging. He said I was probably going to have the baby that day and I could go to the hospital whenever I felt ready. I was so confused because I didn't really know what that meant. Was I supposed to go in when I felt stronger contractions or just show up when I was mentally ready? Weston had planned on going to lunch with his friend Ray after my appointment so we drove separate cars. When the doctor said I could go to the hospital anytime, I decided to go to lunch with Weston because I had been having stronger contractions. We went to sushi and the longer we sat at the restaurant, the more uncomfortable my contractions became. I debated on going home to get the rest of my things or going straight to the hospital. I decided we should go straight to the hospital. I called my mom to let her know we were heading over there. She told me Kara kind of wanted to be at the birth, but didn't want to ask so I wouldn't feel pressured to have her there. I wasn't sure yet if I wanted that many people in the room though. Then we called Weston's mom and she asked if we wanted her to head over and I said yes even though I thought it would just be me, Weston and my mom in the room when I delivered. We drove both cars over and figured someone could drive Weston back to the hospital if he wanted to take a car home.
We went up to labor and delivery and I told the nurse that I wasn't really in pain, but my doctor said to come to the hospital when I was ready. She got us set up in a room and said she would call the on call OB to come check me. I had Weston take one last picture of me pregnant then I changed into a hospital gown. A nurse came in to take my vitals and start an IV. About an hour after we arrived, Dr. Ciklin came in and checked me. She said I was 6cm dilated and she was going to break my water. I was surprised it was already time to break my water, but excited it was finally happening. She broke my water and I felt a gush of warm fluid. My contractions started getting stronger after that and more amniotic fluid would came out on the first few I had after my water broke. I text two ladies I know whose husbands work for the anesthesiologist group that would be giving me my epidural. One of the guys was at the surgery center almost done with his shift and the other was coming on in an hour. I was excited that it would be someone I kind of knew giving me my epidural. The nurse told me if I had to pee she would have to check my cervix again to make sure I wasn't too dilated, but I wanted to wait until I go my epidural. It took the nurse anesthetist a little longer to get there than I expected and my bladder was about to explode. I decided to go pee and right after my friend Erica's husband, Curt Boardman, got there to give me my epidural. Turns out he was in my in laws ward before the split. I barely felt any pain and soon the left side of my body started going numb. I could still feel some of my contractions on the right so he told the nurse to have me lay on my right side so the medication would numb me up on that side. Eventually, I couldn't feel any more of my contractions. I could still move my legs, but they were tingly and kind of numb. They put a catheter in and I didn't feel a thing which was nice considering the one I had when I went to the hospital for preterm labor was awful!
37 weeks
Mom and Kara got to the hospital around 6. Emily wanted to be at the birth too, but she had to work til 8:30pm and I was sure I would have him before that. I progressed pretty quickly, but the baby's head was turned and not engaging in the birth canal. When I was dilated to 9cm I asked when the doctor was coming. The nurse said she wasn't going to call the doctor until I was closer. I thought that once I hit 10cm the doctor had to be there, but I didn't realize the baby's head also has to come down a certain amount in the birth canal til it is time to deliver. Emily got off work around the time I was 10cm dilated and the nurse wanted me to start pushing a little bit. She had me on my left side pushing, then turned me to my right side to push so the baby would turn his head. It is the strangest feeling having an epidural because I could feel the pressure of the baby's head the longer I pushed, but it didn't hurt. Rachel came to bring us a phone charger in the midst of all the pushing and Lora told her to stay. At that point I didn't care who was in the room, but I kept yelling at everyone to stop looking at my vagina. They said they were looking at the baby's head, but his head wasn't out yet and I didn't want them looking down there! I wanted Weston to look when the nurse said she could see the baby's head and it had a lot of hair. Weston was trying not to look, though, and stayed up by my head. I pushed for almost 2 hours by the time Dr. Pack got there to deliver me. I could feel the baby's head a lot more at that point. Finally, at 11:19pm Easton Joseph Milne was born at 5lb 6oz and 17.5 inches long. He had a lot of dark hair and his poor little head was kind of cone shaped because he was in the birth canal so long.
I cried when they set him on me. They took him to get weighed and cleaned up. All the girls gathered around him and I kept asking Weston why he wasn't going over by the baby. He said he wanted to let the nurses get whatever they needed to get done first. While Easton was getting cleaned up, Dr. Pack was sewing me up. I had a grade 2 tear and a hematoma on the posterior wall of my vagina. He drained the hematoma and sewed that up as well. Everyone left pretty quickly after he was born and then it was just the 3 of us. I did skin to skin with Easton and tried nursing. It was a lot more awkward than I thought it would be and my nipples hurt. I didn't sleep much that first night/morning even though Easton slept a lot. Dr. Ciklin came in the morning and asked when I would like to go home. I didn't want to go home that night, which she offered, because of how much I hurt. We planned on me being discharged Saturday morning.
All Friday I was still having trouble holding my bladder after they took the catheter out. The nurse had me wearing disposable underwear, a huge pad, an ice pack pad and witch hazel pads. If I didn't go to the bathroom every hour then I would pee while trying to run to the bathroom. It was horrible! I kept asking the nurse when it was supposed to get better and she said that the bladder is usually the last muscle to gain full function after an epidural. I had a lot of pain and pressure when I would go to the bathroom as well, but the nurse said that was normal. Weston got me Red Robin for dinner that night because the food at the hospital was not very good. Lindsey Jappe, Rachel, Devan, Tylee and Reagan came to visit us. Friday night I kept complaining about the pressure and pain and I was having so the head nurse came to check the hematoma. She said she was going to have the laborist that was on that night come check me more thoroughly. He used a speculum to open me up which did not feel good at all! Weston was holding my hand the whole time and he doctor would ask where I was hurting. He said the hematoma was clotting, but was still large so I would either have to go to surgery or have them pack my vagina. He called my OB and they decided to pack my vagina to see if that would help. I was crying a lot and used a whole box of tissue because I was scared. The nurse put in a new IV and catheter since they had been taken out earlier that day. The look in Weston's eyes was so sad too. It was like he hated seeing me in so much pain and couldn't do anything for me. Before the doctor came back the nurse asked to take Easton to the nursery while I was having the procedure. I said that was fine and Weston said Easton should stay in there for the night so I could get some sleep. The doctor came back in and packed my vagina with betadine socked gauze and said it needed to stay in for at least 12 hours to compress the hematoma. After he put it in I actually felt better because there was pressure being put on the hematoma and so I couldn't feel the pressure and pain I had before. I had Weston call my Pop and his dad to come give me a blessing. I felt bad because it was 1 in the morning, but I wanted them there. Weston sealed the anointing and Pop gave me the blessing. The nurse gave me dilaudid for the pain and I slept for a few hours. I woke up early in the morning and asked to have Easton brought back in our room since I missed him. The nurse said I needed to give Easton formula because he had jaundice and needed to be supplemented to get him to poop. I would breast feed first, then give him a bottle.
Saturday I was so drugged up! The dilaudid made me really drowsy and kind of dizzy. Early in the morning the nurse brought me a Motrin before breakfast. I think the combination of that and the dilaudid was not good because I ended up throwing up my burger from the night before. I kept feeling dizzy and nauseous, but I needed the pain medication. Weston went home to shower and take a nap before coming back to the hospital. Dr. Ciklin came in the morning and we decided to leave the gauze in til the afternoon. She came back and took out the gauze and said it looked a lot better and I only had a small amount of swelling. Easton still had a high level of jaundice so they decided to have him wear a bili blanket to help it go down. It just slid into his shirt and stayed on as much as possible. Aubre Smith came to visit with me. That night I told Weston to go home and get some sleep since he hadn't gotten much since I had been at the hospital.
Sunday morning Dr. Ciklin said I was fine to be discharged. Our nurse packed a bag with tons of diapers, wipes, and formula. I was told by friends to take all the diapers you can get and anything else that is in the room. The nurse did that for me which was really nice. Around 1pm we were on our way home!